get your motor running....

Now this is true Petrosky bohemian blood. My dad with his brand new Harley Davidson. Looks like all those bad habits were passed down to his grandchild as well. My poor nephew:)


note: the above pics were taken a few weeks before Nathan and Crystal moved back to Washington.

the texas heat

A few days after we got our new landscaping, all our flowers died! Yup, died. How? We don't know. Yes they were being watered, however, this is Texas and it has been 100 degrees here. Maybe the flowers just couldn't handle the Texas heat? I don't know. So off to Home Depot we went and picked out different flowers this time. My wonderful husband let me pick out whatever I wanted. Even though we are Aggie's down here, I loved the ORANGE hibiscus flowers. I also picked out some purple butterfly bushes. And what would a Texas yard not be complete without? Yes that's right, a cactus! Here are a few pictures I took with my camera. My aunt Kat needs to teach me her great photography skills. I have a lot to learn.

I'll have another rib, please.

So I have been offline for a few days laying in bed, taking hot baths, walking around the house hunched over, but mainly laying in bed tossing and turning with pain. My rib, actually two of 'em, decided they didn't want to stay put. Or according to my wonderful chiropractor they just keep popping out of place. You would think having a chiropractor pop your ribs back into place would hurt like hell, but it actually feels pretty good. Unfournately that doesn't keep me from hurting 24 hours a day. I think I have made about 5 trips to the chiropractor in the past week. This morning I woke up feeling pretty good and haven't hurt all day. I guess my ribs are tired of this shit just as much as I am. So now that I am back to normal and not walking around like a zombie, I will get caught up on my blogging. I have lots to write about including my wasp nest outside who are now my pets and our landscaping flowers that went kapooie! (long story!)

stupid is as stupid does?

Sometimes I wonder if some people are born under a rock, or just plain stupid? Or maybe they are just cold-hearted? Some of the things people have said to us after my miscarriage have been shocking. Brice came home upset last week. He said a guy named Peter (not his real name) told him that I probably caused this miscarriage because of the vicodin I take. Brice said it took everything in his power not to punch this guy out. My poor husband being the soft-hearted guy he is, was too upset to explain to this guy that my doctors at MD Anderson, one of the best cancer hospitals in the world, have told me it's perfectly safe for me to take under their supervision while pregnant. My unborn baby would be in far more danger if I didn't take it. I don't think anyone can understand the pain I go thru everyday. I have had ten brain surgeries, and two spinal surgeries. And lets not forget Gama Knife, a high dose of radiation therapy, all to remove tumors from my nerves. Yes nerves are what cause our body to hurt. And let's not forget to mention the tumors I still have on my spine and brain that haven't been removed. This Peter guy is a real jerk, but sadly he isn't the only person who has said hurtful things to us. A very good friend of mine asked me if my doctors were going to give me medicine so this miscarriage doesn't happen again? You're kidding me, right? Yeah she assumed this miscarriage was caused because something is wrong with me. Never once did she stop to think that maybe it was just spontaneous or chemical? People automatically want to assume something is wrong with me, and that hurts. We all have the same odds of having a miscarriage, yes even you. Of course we all think it won't ever happen to us, but those are the ones it normally happens to. Brice and I are slowly coming to peace with all the hurtful things that have been said to us. I could go on and on, but I think this was enough for me to write about- I feel better now.

stalk my chart

Last month we used the Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor and got pregnant on the first try with it!! I went ahead and reset it for this month so we can use it again. I figured might as well since my miscarriage bleeding has stopped. Half way thru my cycle last month I started a chart at Fertility Friend and decided to go ahead and chart again this month even though I prefer the monitor for ovulation. Me and all my online friends who are trying to conceive like to stalk each others charts for fun, so I thought I would post my link here for those who are interested in looking at it. You really have to know a lot about fertility charting to understand it. But it's really cool to know what's going on with your body before and after ovulation. It's also a good way of knowing you may be pregnant after ovulation because your temps will stay high. Brice wanted to know where the hell I find all this stuff from. He didn't know women could take their temp every morning to help determine days of ovulation. So our goal is to get knocked up really soon.....wish us luck!
Maryann's Fertility Friend Chart

john edwards

Me, my mom, Kayla, and Kayla's mother-in-law went to the Crown Plaza in downtown Houston last night to see the medium John Edwards. I went in being very skeptical, and left totally amazed. John Edwards gave readings to certain people who had loved ones who have passed away that would come thru to him and give him messages. He knew things about these people that nobody should have known. Every reading he gave, people were just bawling crying. I won't get into the details of the readings, but if you want to know just ask me! I will tell you more. One thing I found interesting, were the two ladies who worked for the John Edward's show. Their job was mainly to stand around and pass around the microphones to the people John wanted to speak with. They travel with him every weekend so they are use to seeing what he does, but as I watched those two ladies sit off to the side they had tears in their eyes and were completely amazed at the readings John Edwards was giving people. You could tell they were just as affected by it as we were. If it was all fake, I can't figure out how he did it. My only theory is that he paid off the people who he gave readings to. That would explain why only 10 people got readings out of 300 people. But you would think after all the shows he has done, rumors would be getting started about the people he pays off to lie. I don't know what to think. But wheather John Edwards is a fake or not, I will always believe in spirits, ghost, angels, the afterlife, and heaven.
Here is a picture of me and Kayla. Wish it had turned out better, but cute enough for two friends who haven't seen each other since high school!!

missing my nathan

I found out I was pregnant the day Crystal and Nathan flew back home to Washington. I knew being pregnant would help me deal with them being gone. And espically my dad because he was so sad to let Nathan go, but yet so excited he had another grandbaby on the way. I don't think any of us could have ever predicted it would end in a miscarriage.
Crystal sent me these pictures from 4th of July. I didn't realize how much I missed Nathan till I looked at these pictures and a few tears came falling. But I told Crystal he looks really happy and deserves to be back in Washington with his daddy.

You can tell how happy PJ is, too.

new landscaping

We finally got some landscaping done around our new house. I told the landscapers exactly what I wanted and they did a fantastic job! We also have an Oak tree we will be planting in the front yard this weekend. Now all we need is a really nice mailbox. We can't decide between a brick mailbox or something really nice from Home Depot.

Moving on

Today we went to see Dr. Miller for my post-op miscarriage appointment. My urine test came out negative for pregnancy. You have no idea how happy we were. Brice was so afraid I was going to need a D&C to remove any dead tissue. This has been so hard for him. He hasn't been eating or sleeping well. He said he can finally relax now that we know for a fact it is really over. Dr. Miller said I should have a normal period in 2-6 weeks. She also said I could very well ovulate before I get that period, and if we feel up to it, she said we can go ahead and start trying now to get pregnant. That's defiantly what we wanted to hear. We both want that baby so bad and don't want to put it off any longer. She said 90% of miscarriages are for spontaneous reasons. The other 10% are caused when there is a problem with the male or female. She said they don't start testing for problems till after three miscarriages. We are pretty confident this won't happen again and it's been an amazing learning lesson and a great test for our marriage. I think we passed with flying colors.

Things I have learned.....

* Hope and excitement does not make bad things happen. You can not jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker or telling all your friends and family the minute you find out you're pregnant. I won't do it differently next time. Do not think you could m/c again by holding off on telling everyone next time you are pregnant. Live in the positive!

* Just because so-and-so had 10 miscarriage does not mean I will have to go thru 10 miscarriages. And I really do not like it when people feel the need to tell me this to "make me feel better". I'm sorry that does not make me feel better because there is nothing wrong with me to why I will have to go thru 10 miscarriages before having a healthy baby.

* There is no reason why I should be devastated and depressed over my miscarriage. 50% of all women will have a m/c in their lifetime. I know it's nothing we did wrong and it could not have been prevented.

* My past does not dictate my future. A previous miscarriage does not mean I will have another miscarriage.

* Do not let it upset you when people say you can try again "someday" and you will have that baby "someday". That "someday" will come a lot sooner than they think. We are trying again next month.

Funny Hubby!!

This past Wednesday morning, I woke up and told Brice that the pills they gave me in the emergency room to help pass all the blood clots was working. But I needed pads, and big ones! You're not allowed to wear tampons during a miscarriage. So I told him to go to WalMart and get the biggest pads he could find. I also needed some cheap WalMart panties because I was ruining my good Victoria Secret panties!

After he returned from WalMart, he came home telling me "I must have looked really confused looking at all those pads because a WalMart lady walked up to me and said "Sir, do you need some help?" Brice goes on to tell me he explained to her his wife just had a miscarriage and needed really big pads. So the lady opened every package and started showing Brice all the different sizes. After he finally picked out a good size and told the lady thanks, he went over to the underwear section and got me the ugliest granny panties you would ever see! I'm sure the look on the cashiers face when he checked out was priceless! I asked him how he knew what aisle the pads and tampons were on, and he said because he sees them all the time when he goes to buy his shampoo, haha..

The moral of this story is that when your husband is willing to walk thru WalMart with 4 packages of extra-big pads and ugly granny panties, you know he must really LOVE you!

cool baby bag?

I got this really cool bag from Sunny Hearts here in Angleton. I thought it would make a cute duffel or overnight bag. It's by Buckhead Betties for $38.99 I love it for a baby bag as well because it's perfect for a boy or girl. Hopefully that's what we'll get to use it for really soon. Even the husband likes it!

We're Homeowners!!

This is a copy and paste from my old myspace blog written on February 19, 2008

Today at 4pm, one day after Nathan's 2nd birthday, Brice and I closed on our very first home. When Joyce Peltier handed over the keys, it was an amazing feeling. This isn't your ordinary "first time" house. It's brand new and absolutely beautiful. Neither one of us ever expected our first home to be this nice. I guess God had different plans for us. I can't wait to raise a family here, and the best part is that our kids will go to the same elementary school (Rancho) that I did. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world that I have a husband that works so hard to provide a great life for us.
My dad has been wonderful as well, helping us every step of the way. Today he bought us a brand new Kitchen Aid refrigerator from Lowes. We love it.
We both fell in love with the kitchen cabinets when we first saw the house. The dinner table will have to go once we have kids in the house.
We have a really nice coffee table in front of the couch that matches the round end table. Just can't see it in this picture. Brice's parents helped pay for our living room furniture which we are very thankful for!